Anyway I said that I was fine just had a lot going on. While I was talking I was waiting for the staff computer to load the Panic center website and my coworker looked at it and said, "Panic Center! I guess your not really doing okay." GRRRRR So I replied I have been better but this is just a difficult time right now for me. She saw how uncomfortable I was with her knowing about me being a part of the Panic center and she came over and offfered that she is there for me if I need someone to talk to. Now I am worried that word will spread and that my job will be in danger because of this. Whatever, I am human we all have our own issues. I decided to get fresh air and drive to Quick Check to get a cup of tea and decided to eat soup. I didn't go for the meaty soups, instead I went for a total liquid soup of Sweet Potatoe bisque. As I sat down to eat I noticed a mother and her little girl also having lunch. The little girl is stuffing her face and here I am trying to sustain myself with liquidfied things and simple foods. I got up and got a handful of crakers and began eating them with my soup. Its not much but made me feel better. I began thinking to myself about how childish I feel about all of this. I am an adult and I use to eat fine all the time, whatever I wanted. Now its like I have to teach myself to eat all over again. I envied that little girl and wished I was her age again. Hopefully one day I can look back at this and know that I was able to overcome it. Sorry for the long story, I just needed to vent. 
