I feel like it is all wrong. I feel like I want to stop and scream that this cannot be my life. It seems so wrong. No sign of another job, although I must have sent out a thousand CV's by now. I feel utterly trapped and helpless. I feel like I will just have to carry on doing what I hate, at the expense of my health, my happiness, my relationship with my husband (we grew apart to the point that he cheated on me last time I was on night shift). For what? Is this really that important? Am I really willing to sacrifice myself for this ungrateful company? Sure, the money is good but can you put a price on any of the things that really matter? Health, love, mental sanity? I feel like a caged animal and am worried I might bite the hand that feeds me if I don't do something to get out of this place.....
