Seems my biggest setback is being too busy to work on this program.
I work 3 days a week in the helping profession and 2 days a week I'm trying to start up my own business.
I've been so busy and in many ways coping well, that I didn't make time to do daily journal entries. But my flashbacks have reduced from the PTSD incidents and I'm noticing I'm just way too busy to sit & enjoy life, but I really do enjoy each day....I just wish the panics would go away, so I'm returning to 'keep up with my experience' by educating myself through this site every day. I've found the most difficult thing to control is my breathing & stomach tension.
Especially when the a Police team arrived at work. (OK, that was an unusual day this month, a client started acting out & I had to go in & de-escalate the situation and I wasn't sure if he had a concealed weapon.) I'll admit I was scared but once I started talking to the guy I really started to feel and think I could handle the situation. I remained calm on the outside, but inside I was a bit panicy. Actually, I think I coped very well, and all of the staff involved were a little stressed so it was nice to know that instead of listening to my negative thoughts telling me I shouldn't have this tenstion & anxiety, when the situation was 'out of the ordinary', and I handled it well. I'm just under alot of pressure financially and trying to learn how to design a web site so I can get my business up & running.
So I'm convincing myself this site will help if I apply the learnings daily ....and I must make time for myself on top of the other course I'm doing on top of working 2 jobs.
I've learned that setbacks are worse in my mind than in reality and overreading my symptoms doesn't help.
Yoga & just taking time to relax inside really helps.
It's usually better the next day.
Setbacks are just that, a set back waiting to be turned into a come back.
so hang in there everyone.
AlbE
