Each Fall I think about what might be coming and how am I going to feel this Fall, with less sunlight, colder weather. I thought this Fall/Winter would be different, but it has not been, yet.
My emotions and anxieties have ranged from depression about mortality to anxiety about going to work and wondering if I am going to have a bad panic attack.
Thus far, I have not had a bad panic attack and my depression and anxiety has been mild to tiring. A lot of it involves my old friend Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. While I have had recent bouts with OCD, for some reason it really holds on tight in the Fall and Winter.
Aside from all this I am always keeping busy doing things with my wife. I have not increased meds, but have taken valium a few times where needed.
I guess the reason I am writing is to do my venting. This is my first post since August. I think that's pretty good. As I am typing I really don't feel horrible. I have had the fears of death, anxiety and depression since I can remember going back to the '70's.
As some of you have read my posts over the past few years, none of this will come as a surprise to you. I am just glad to have a place like this to be able to express my fears, etc.
David
