hello,
I posted my whole stroy here:
http://www.paniccenter.net/support/viewmessages.cfm?Forum=2&Topic=903
but il get to the root on this post.
I have a fear of swallowing, when I go to swallow (anything even my own saliva) I feel as if the flap of skin is not going to fold over my windpipe and ill choke on it.
I gets worse the ****her from home I am. I had panic for a long time, but thats gone, this problem has only exsisted for about 3months.
It is worse when I try to ride with someone. but it all lays on how long it takes me to get home. walking 1 block from my appartment is just as bad as driving 10.
now ive never choked, and I do not have anxiety with this, only an extream fear. I used ot have anxiety driving from home, but not on the ay back....well now I have less difficulty swallowing away from home (mainly caus eI know ill have to come back, and I feel "unsafe" anywhere else) but its really hard on the way home...it seems harder the closer I get to getting back home. and when im at a spot light or out of the car..when my mind has more idle time, it gets really bad, to the point of almost panic.
I am unaware on how to face this head on. I look at it like this:
If my fear was climbing latter I could just simply climb down and end the experience withing 15 seconds. But with mine, if im 20, 10 or even 2 in from home, I know that I can not end the experience for atleast that long!
im sorry this is all jumbled, but im just so sick of not having a life. and im not sure how to handle this. my phscologist just says "do it"...but I cant just "do it".
thank you for listening and your support.
