It has been a hard couple of months. I didn't want to let the customers down, but at the same time I also knew I personally couldn't deliver. Every time I saw a sprinkle of relieve in the depressive episode, I jumped on it to get work done. Maybe that was the wrong decision, as every time I hit a wall. As a result I had a long slow decent into depression.
My reputation has suffered tremendously and that is much more difficult to deal with than the income losses. I am currently wondering whether I should try to rebuilt everything, or move on to something else and keep the current business as a side business.
She uses me anyway because I offer my services dirt cheap and when I'm healthy.... I'm really, really good. I provide daycare for my working daughter and in this I am very fortunate.